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say what!!!?!?!?? [02 Aug 2007|11:21am] yup. definitely got my finger pierced. so did bon. it looks absolutely freakin sweet in real life. 5 waves Surfs up?

if you're not loving, you're dying [30 May 2007|01:13pm] this year, i discovered the key to happiness. it's not a steady boyfriend. it's not good grades. it's not being successful or always having a friend to call. it's having yourself to call. i never thought i'd want to call upon myself for support- i was too big of a romantic for that. i've never been so happy in my life. i've never been so content. i haven't cried since sometime in 2006. (other than once in sympathy for a weeping relative, which is more than forgivable i think) our faults are what we give ourselves to justify deserving more. when we feel sad, it is not because of someone else's faults. when we feel inadequate, it is not because we are inadequate, it is because we have convinced ourselves that approval is the only real form of legitimacy.  why have we lied ourselves into misery? i am beyond myself in excitment for this way of living. everyday is gets easier and easier to love without expectations of return. if someone doesn't try as hard for me as i am for them, it is not because i am undeserving, it is because they do not know how to love. a love that is not unconditional is not a love i want anyway... in fact, it's not love at all. so, i have found myself in some odd relationship predicaments, but it doesn't bother me at all. i will wait for people to return as friends when they are ready, and i won't say a negative word untill then or after. i have found the satisfaction in basing self quality off of MY actions, rather than the actions received by others.  this life is fantastic. there are so many ways to live it. there are so many different people to be. there is so much to see, feel, hear, taste, know. there is so much. it is unfortunate that i will never have an effect on you again. i doubt we could ever be close enough, even if we really, really wanted to be. but that does not mean i won't be you're friend. i will not say a mean word about you. i will love you for eternity, and maybe someday, it will be returned. if not... then at least i can say i did my part. i'm sorry this was long, but i'm not going to be posting much anymore. maybe it was inspiring. maybe it made you think. maybe not. but in any case, love before you die. 1 wave Surfs up?

friendship is cats [22 Apr 2007|06:19pm] i miss jay, and i can't stand it. please come back. Surfs up?

i am happy. [12 Apr 2007|05:46pm] i hope that heaven's walls are made of music and soft sand fills the ground. i hope the ceiling is a star-filled sky and light reflects the sound. i hope there's silence like between the break of waves ashore the sea. i hope our bodies dance instead of walk and souls are all we see. 3 waves Surfs up?

The Statistical Analysis of Me Liking You [09 Apr 2007|02:22pm] so, i put together some graphs to explain what major factors are evaluated when i decide to like someone. behold: ( Statistical Analysis of Me Liking you Graph ) There are definately more criteria, but here are some basics. You'll notice some positive linear correlations that drop down to a steep negetive slop at some large x value. these are reserved for x inputs that can become annoying once past the maximum x value. There are also a few straight horizontal lines, indicationg that those x values are of no positive value to me, untill some point where it is of negative value or ,in some cases, a slight positive value. 3 waves Surfs up?

but in the end, what good is it to be missed? [24 Mar 2007|03:30pm] to miss is to waste love. Surfs up?

oh my [11 Mar 2007|11:00pm] i love when people make themselves completely unlikable. it makes disliking them so wonderfully easy. but, on a badass note, i most likely have the greatest female friends on the planet. they pretty much show up every boy i've ever known, and they are all about 50million times smarter, funnier, more attractive, and more talented than nearly every boy i know. how great is that? i know a lot of girls that have trouble finding really great female friends, but all of my girl friends are best friends, and i honestly couldn't ask for more amazing, trustable, enjoyable people to spend my life with. they're all just so caring, and they love me in such an obvious way. man, i am blessed. i mean seriously. wow. whenever one door closes... you find the key. thank you, Lord. 4 waves Surfs up?

[09 Aug 2006|03:40pm] my little brother has a new live journal. he is so freakin cool. check it: takeit4granted (get it, cause his name is grat) 3 waves Surfs up?

[07 Jan 2004|05:06pm] 34 waves Surfs up?

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